1/13/2025

I hate philly and everyone there. I thought moving would be so awesome sauce and my friends were gonna talk to me but I didn't know they're posting stuff about me calling me weird and other things. I'm moving back to colorado in a bit where people actually like me. My friends say that people don't even sit in my seat anymore cs they miss me or wtv. If not, i'm just moving to a different school in philly bc i love the place its better than co but everyone here is awful. Theres like 3 people who don't hate me and I'm pretty sure one of them shit talks me to everyone. I start shaking when a classmate talks to me. I only wanted to come to philly bc i thought it would be cool but now I hate myself and everyone and I have to cry every single day I hate it here. Philly itself is so awesome but I wanna get away from everyone so it's either private school or co. I like co more bc i already know the kids there and I hate going to new schools but I also don't like co as a whole. I wish I could bring my friends from co back here then i'd be happy. I don't think philly makes up for how awful my life is here so im 90% sure im moving back to co. I don't wear white fox hoodies and leggings so that's why everyone thinks i'm ugly and I have dyed curly hair and not straight blonde hair. I can't eat lunch or breakfast so I don't look fat at school I can only eat dinner and even then there isn't much to eat since I can't eat in front of my brother since hes fat and everyone feels bad for him when somebody eats in front of him. When I isolate myself from people and cry everyone says im overreacting and retarded. They don't get fat shamed, called ugly, have posts about them calling them weird and showing pictures of them, they dont get told by the entire cafeteria to get the fuck out. Their friends don't talk shit about them and spread rumors and lies. they havent had this happening to them for an entire year. I genuinely wanna homeschool myself and never leave the house. Everyone loved me before I moved and now everyone is treating me like I did some death penalty crime.